Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Where did the real posts go?

They're on hiatus, unfortunately. I just don't have it in me.

Happy pictures of my happy kids are helping.

I'm tired, but not nearly as exhausted as others in my family.

I alternate from being numb, to borderline breakdown, to stern resolve within a matter of minutes... all the while with an aching heart, heavy in my chest, and a scream nestled uncomfortably as a whisper in the depths of my throat.

But I have to get past that. It's not about me.

I try to maintain positive thoughts, put on a cheerful face, as they need to see it. We all need to see it. We all need to feel it.

Hope. Strength.

To fight it.

25 comments:

Kim said...

Oh Karen.. I wish I could personally give you a hug. I am sending lots of prayers and love to you and your family..

Ginaagain said...

Karen, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I wish I could do more.

donna said...

I'm thinking of you.

gmcountrymama said...

Thinking of you in this sad time.

Tara R. said...

Sending you hugs and prayers.

Beck said...

I'm sorry. Praying for you.

Kori said...

I wish I knew what was going on, but will be thinking of your entire family.

April said...

Don't beat yourself up for being sad - you have every reason! And then you'll appreciate every genuine reason you have to smile, too.
Continuing to wish you and your family well...

Xbox4NappyRash said...

Take care.

Cherry said...

Oh Sweetie. It is about you.
It's ok for you to be sad and scared. Kids need to see that we can and how to coup. Even if we don't feel that we know how ourselves. I know, easier said then done.

HUGS to you and your family.

Badness Jones said...

Hang in there darling. I don't know what stage your dad is at, but I'm sure that just having you and the kids around is helping...even if he's too tired to interact with them much. It's a long and hard process, we went through it with my Dad a year ago, and I hope that your family's journey is easier. I know that there's not really much I can do to help, but I'm here if you need an ear.

xoxo Sarah

Rima said...

I'm so sorry your family is going through such a hard time. Sending healthy thoughts your way . . .

Miss said...

Oh sweetie, I'd be giving you a big hug right now if I could. It's ok not to be the strongest you know.... *hug*

Kami said...

Oh Karen, I wish we could all share some of your burden right now. I am sure it helps to get your feelings out a bit and you don't have to be strong for us.

My thoughts are with you and your family during this very difficult time.

Huckdoll said...

Karen, while I admire your strength - Lord knows I have smiled through heartache and pain for the sake of my family - please give in to the release when you can. Take some time to cry your heart out if you need to. It's scary, but in the end it's very freeing.

Take care of yourself, because even if it's not about you, it kind of is. People need you healthy - in mind and spirit and soul - not just in strength.

C said...

Been thinking of you, your Dad, your family...

If you're ever up for a visit or chat, you know where to find me!

Hugs XOXO

Simon said...

Sorry to hear this - hope things go better for you all soon.

Don Mills Diva said...

Karen - just concentrate on looking after yourself and your family - all your readers will be here when you come back.

E-mail if you need anything or just want to talk - I'm thinking about you.

Colleen - Mommy Always Wins said...

My thoughts are with you...

louann said...

I know you'll get through this.

{{hugs}}

OHmommy said...

thinking of you, babe

Mrs4444 said...

Keep reaching out; we're here for you :) Love and prayers to you....

petite gourmand said...

I hope everything is okay.....

Kelley said...

Oh sweetie.

Wish I had words to help, but sending my love.

<3

dkuroiwa said...

I wish there were some magical words that I could type that would make all your pain and sadness and suffering go away, but...thre aren't. Just know that I am thinking of you...and sending big hugs and prayers!!

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